Where does the time go??
I find myself saying this all too often—at the end of the day, the week, the month, the year.
And it’s time for a change.
As an entrepreneur, there is literally always something more to do. I could work 24 hours a day and never be “caught up,” which is something I have struggled with for years.
I find this conundrum to be especially challenging since my work is creative in all sorts of ways, which is something I love. It’s extremely easy for me to give in to the compulsion to make—whether I’m making a design for a client, an Instagram template or a blog post. It doesn’t matter what it is, I love the act of making to an extreme depth. I feel it in my bones.
But for what feels like forever now, I’ve been trying to get a handle on how I actually spend my time. I’ve experimented with all sorts of processes and schedules and mindset shifts. And while things have definitely improved, it has never fully clicked that I need to make a conscious, mindful and consistent effort to choose how I spend my time. And not just once, but consistently over time.
“I don’t have time,” is my biggest, constant complaint.
Both as an excuse to not do something else and as a gripe that I “can’t” do something I want to do. But, I am fully aware that complaining about not having time to do something is actually bullshit. Especially in my situation, as a person who runs their own business on their own terms, I have the power to choose how I spend my time. If I’m working til 2 AM, skipping exercise, not picking up the phone, those are choices I am making.
Part of what’s held me back is that I really want to do all the things. I want to be making progress towards work goals. I want to be spending time on things I love to do that aren’t also work. I want to be making more connections, making healthy choices, seeing the world, and just simply relaxing.
My challenge is to figure out how to be more intentional about making all of those things a conscious part of my day-to-day life, so that I feel really good about how I’m choosing to spend my time each day.
So from here on out, I’m making an effort to start each month off with clear intentions. With goals and plans in mind (as opposed to to-do lists), so that I don’t keep getting to the end of the month and wondering what I actually did with myself for the last 30 days.
I know it’s not going to be perfect (far from it.) And I don’t have any answers yet. But I’m hoping this little experiment will help me gain some more clarity.
Starting tomorrow, I’ll welcome August with my intentions for the month, a mood board (you know I’ll take any excuse to make one!), and some plans for how I’m going to track my progress.